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I’ve been thinking a lot this month, while writing all about plant medicine, specifically regarding what I was going to write today. It’s February 20th, #ThankYouPlantMedicine Day, and I have a lot to be grateful for in that regard. I’ve also already spent some time writing about my plant medicine experiences in the past, and I wanted to invite some fresh perspective back into the mix.
Fortunately, Spirit is always faithful, and provided me with an incredible experience during my meditation last night. It wasn’t directly related to plant medicine, but then I made a connection—giving me an entirely new level of appreciation for not only these sacred allies, but maybe every difficult experience I’ve ever had.
See, I found myself coming into a strange energetic awareness within my body. I could feel/sense imbalances in the areas of my body from my heart chakra down. I simply tried to breathe and release, letting go and relaxing. Focusing on my breath was balancing things out, and eventually I had gained a sense of equilibrium… But then the root surfaced.
It was a desperation to be accepted. Deep and painful insecurities about my body and worth began to show themselves, and as I kept breathing I also began to cry. There I was, a scared little girl again, feeling like something is terribly wrong with her. And, I just wanted to be loved.
After coming into this uncomfortable awareness, I began to work with it, and ultimately it led to an incredible liberation. I’m going to have to write all about that process in another Editorial tomorrow though, because this article is all about discovering an entirely new aspect of generosity and power to plant medicine. Suffice to say, I had some complex traumas “triggered” during my meditation and that created the opportunity to do that work.
Up until last night though, it had been a long while since I’d been “triggered.” I had been doing so good! In fact, as I started the livestream, I even mentioned how I’d been having some really good days. I couldn’t help but wonder how I had managed to go from so high to so low, so fast… And that’s when Spirit’s awareness settled in my heart, whispering: “That’s why you were given the chance to do this work now, you had enough energetic capacity to go there.”
Suddenly, streaming across the holograms of my mind’s eye, instance upon instance of “triggering” moments that had been followed by healing work flashed before me—and along with them, some highlighted details: first, many of these other instances were proceeded by an energetic lift or high, but additionally, the ones that weren’t were “triggered” instead by plant medicine.
You will see me sitting stunned after I finish my meditation. Everything I had just experienced and reexperienced within such a short amount of time was so profound, it left me dumbstruck. Even now, I feel at a loss for how to describe these things—though arguably I haven’t thought too seriously about much else since last night.
I did come away with absolute certainty of something though: plant medicines, on at least some level, allow us to do the deep work they do because they’re assisting us through their own energetic lift. Suddenly, their “triggering” of repressed memories, fears, and other demons made complete sense—those things were all already there, the medicine simply lent the strength to be able to face them.
To be honest, I haven’t even begun to integrate this yet. It still feels raw and my mind has been flooded by the spaciousness of cognitive dissonance. Yet, I feel to my core that once this sinks in, it’s going to have a far-reaching impact upon my perspectives.
As I sit here—still largely dumbstruck—I can’t help but feel in awe of the immense grace and love present within these sacred healers. To have seen, and finally understood on such a profoundly energetic level, that they weren’t merely “triggering” me but actually gave of their own pure frequency to elevate me to a position in which I had the capacity to be “triggered…” I mean, wow (it also makes me ask so many questions I’ve never even dreamed of before, but I digress).
So, yes. In no small way, I want to shout it from the rooftops: THANK YOU PLANT MEDICINE! Thank you for helping me learn to overcome my fears! Thank you for helping me face my traumas! Thank you for allowing me the opportunity to see and feel love, connection, and Source in ways that changed me on every level imaginable—and beyond! Thank you for inviting me to free myself from my pain and choose to be healed rather than get stuck in the cycle of healing! Thank you for validating my sober spiritual and astral experiences! Thank you for revealing the truths, both hard and beautiful, that have allowed me to step into greater and grater freedom and joy! And now, wow—thank you for giving me the energy I needed to be able to do all of that!
I will always be grateful for the time I’ve spent with Mama Aya, Father Bufo, Brothers San Pedro and Peyote, Sisters Psylocibin and Kambo, Grandmothers Marijuana and Sananga, Grandfathers Mapacho and Rapé. I continue to integrate, learn, and grow from their influence, day after day. I am so honored and blessed—thank you all—thank you, thank you, thank you. And Happy #ThankYouPlantMedicine Day, everyone!
